What do you do when you’re poorly and already have a chronic illness?


I panic.

What if it is more than a cold or what if it affects my chest or what if, what if, what… pretty much the same anxieties that go through my mind in everyday life. Except this time the consequences are very much real.

My body is like an overworked employee, it cannot take any extra work load, especially not the flu or having a cold, and it will overreact and rebel if this happens. 

A simple thing that, adverts have shown women, pounding down the street, being Wonder Woman, fighting off a cold with medicines such a night nurse – which I cannot even bloody take. 

Let alone manage to be Wonder Woman- her costume may be a touch tight, and imagine getting that off to go to the loo!! Not only do I have a cold, but I get the feeling I have joined the man flu tribe and I am letting every woman on earth down. Thanks for that media, ta very much!

Any kind of illness that upsets my immune system will pardon the phrase it make me shit through the eye of a needle, and have mucus that looks like I blew my nose, combined with blood and fuck knows what else. (Sorry I always get carried away with the details). 
If I see someone sneeze, I spend the next few days waiting for the familiar symptoms! Not actually sitting waiting, but it plays on mind.

This morning I woke up with a horrendous sore throat, I have no tonsils after 2 years of abscess after abscess, they finally were thrown into the fiery Furness of an incinerator where they belonged.
So I presume it’s just a sore throat, however, it’s 6am, I feel like I have spent the night swallowing razor blades, but alas my sword swallowing days are behind me (Joking) so now I can already feel my tummy starting to rumble.

 I have already got a ‘if I shit myself’ pack in my bag, with spare knickers, pants, wipes and pads.

It’s especially dangerous when you have a cough, a regular cough, and a bum hole that feels like a baby elephant at a water park!

Ok, I must stop moaning, another side effect no one tells you about, the trap of thinking you’re moaning. I think it’s perfectly normal to have 947 health conditions and to talk about them like I would talk about anything else, but apparently in some society, it’s best to not say a word, other people don’t want to know, don’t want to catch it and frankly couldn’t give a flying hoot, as long as you do not bring any kind of doom to their day, or the other side is the people who know, they know how you’re feeling, their second cousins hamster had it, their friend in Siberia had it once, and they know all about it as they had a wart on their finger removed when they were 12.

I have a honey lemon, I am 99% thankful I’m alive, and I’m sure I’ll be back to my usual farty self in absolutely no time at all!


13 Comments Add yours

  1. manyofus1980 says:

    awe sooz, I hope you feel better soon! being sick is no fun at all! sending all my love to you! x

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    1. Thank you! Love Sooz x

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  2. Boo to feeling poorly 😔
    Hope you start to feel better again soon x

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  3. drncbasson says:

    Hi there sooz. Beeing sick aint fun. Stay in doors. Keep warm. Sleep and allow your body rest so it can use all its energy to fight the bug. Some tips for sore throats. Drink hot rooibos tea with honey, lemon and gynger root in the mix. The honey has natural antibiotics. Rooibos helps detox your body. So drink enough water also. And the lemon and gynger will help with the nutrient boost and fighting the bug alongside your own body’s little soldiers. Ive been sick a lot but focussing on staying healthy. So far so good and winter almost gone : ) Stay positive amidts the struggles. A healthy mind will help your body combat it faster.

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    1. Thanks, I’ve had all the honey, lemon and ginger! I’m feeling a bit better! So fingers crossed. Love Sooz x

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  4. msleighm says:

    I’m with you. And the “what if”s is a horrible place to be.

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  5. drncbasson says:

    It shall also ease your coughing/ sore throat : ). Let me know how your doing.

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  6. ritaabuster says:

    Sorry, you are feeling poorly. I understand the throat anxiety too well. Thanks to a sinus infection a couple years ago my larynx was damaged. Now, whenever I wake up with a sore throat and the sniffles I get scared. Will I lose my voice for good this time? It seems nowadays the simple cold and/or flu can kill you quicker than any other disease out there. Get plenty of rest and take care of yourself. Remember there is only one YOU.

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  7. Hope you feel better soon xx

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  8. I would laugh, but I’m also the person who carries a damned notebook of the meds I take, when I take them, and the dosage – and the billion health conditions I’ve got, so yeah… That totally sucks! Boo to Sooz with ooze? I demand pixie dust be sprinkled on you so that you recover fully (and without the need for your emergency pack). Feel better!

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    1. Oh that made me smile! Thank you! I’m currently drinking hot ginger beer and honey which seems to be helping! X


  9. alyssabowman says:

    I am sorry you are feeling bad. I completely understand!! I have been battling Multiple Sclerosis for 16 years now and deal with pain daily. Lord knows I have a boat ton of meds I have to take and it is frustrating. I started my blog about a month and a half ago. It has been such a great experience. I have been able to connect with so many great people that understand what I am going through. I hope you feel better soon. I look forward to more of your posts. Take Care!!

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  10. dawnwairimu says:

    sorry to hear you haven’t been well. Feel better soon!

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