I strive to be a Love Island preened beauty yet I’m more like Onslo from keeping up appearances! (See picture)
Does a beauty regime have to take a bank loan and more products than the local beauty store to make you at least half way to scrubbed, preened and feeling womanly? Or does it just take time and precision or a whole lot of patience?
I (wrongly) assumed possessing a vagina would be enough to make me feel feminine enought but no.
Is it feminine or ladylike?
Those insecure little gremlins that sit on each shoulder telling me my hair should be bouncier, my make up should be better, my feet should be less dry and my nails should been less flaky and body hair…. Body hair should be vanquished! I should be smooth and tanned without a blemish to be seen! But where did I get these ideals from?
My face has been a pus filled nightmare for a few weeks and once the pus disappeared the onset of a scabby (Drug addict mug shot style) face appeared.
So why do I feel like that? Is it me? Is the media? Is it society? or is it a combination of everything that munches away at my own insecurities.
Accepting who you are is one of the hardest things and I doubt anyone really does, warts and all.
I’m unsure if being fat helps my insecurities along the way, I wonder if I feel the need to be more preened as a way of feeling better about myself?
I stopped straightening my hair well over 7 months ago. As I have naturally curly hair, but due to me straightening, bleaching etc… My natural curl pattern was horrific, it was just a big frizz! After dyeing it once in that time and barely using any kind of heat on it…. Is it that, that makes me worry? A change has thrown my routine completely off . Even though my hairs about 200% longer than it was… Have I just got out of a beauty routine?
I’m unsure it’s the make up side of a routine. I don’t wear a lot and I feel I look ok in what I do wear!
I always ask a lot of questions during my blogs but usually I comes up with the answers after arguing with myself!
But feel free to give me your opinion. They are always appreciated!
Love Sooz x