You know when you have so many blogs on the list but choose the one that doesn’t require pictures and links?
Well. That’s why this blog is a little earlier than planned! I’m awake at a ridiculous hour doing laundry, and writing this whilst I wait!
So, enough of that.
I have an instant dislike for new people, it’s as though I set my boundaries high enough to protect myself, then over time take away the bricks.. or sometimes I stupidly take all the bricks away and then have to rebuild (but that’s a whole different story).
New people make me feel so anxious, especially if they’re coming into my space. “What if they want to shake my hand, hug me oh god!” “what if I say something stupid or make a fool of myself?” I find reasons I don’t like them, or to avoid them.
I will make sure any housework is done top to bottom, that there are biscuits or some kind of food. I just struggle with a personal welcome!
Due to being partly deaf I sometimes also struggle to hear people, and my usual ‘squad’ are fairly used to me need repeated at times, whereas New people aren’t so used to me, but why would they be?
Maybe its my own insecurities? maybe it’s the change of a new person? Maybe its my own trust?
Maybe it’s because I have social anxiety.
Maybe its all of those things!
How do you cope with new people?
Love Sooz x