As I a kid I was scared of so many things but as an adult I was imagined it would fade, but in fact it’s worse.
When I was a kid, it was fear of the unknown or of something slightly smaller. although I’ve always felt anxious, even as a small child.
Now its life, life terrifies me. Someone screaming in the street, a loud bang and that’s me on edge for the rest of the night.
Yes I do have an anxiey disorder, so that probably accounts for much of my fraidy cat-ness. But I find the entire world sad, my therapist once asked if I had. Thought about committing suicide, I said no ( I haven’t seriously thought about it) but I said if I didn’t have to be on the planet and could still contact loved ones. I would.
Nature is probably the one thing that absolutely blows my mind… A beautiful caterpillar, how plants look, watching birds dance in the sky… It’s like its just too amazing! It overwhelms me!
Every morning I wake up and feel scared about the what mights? I worry about other people, some who would know I cared even if it hit them on the nose! I post quotes about being happy, looking after yourself and being strong and I mean everything said in them.. but translating that into real life… Now that is the biggest challenge!
The world is a very sad place, with so much fighting and hatred. It’s in our own back gardens. I often think if we were all animals, the human race would probably hunt us to near extinction, and then classify us as endangered and protect us! ( That makes sense in my mind)
What scares you?
Love Sooz x