Where am I at now?

Right now I’m at one of those annoying crossroads… Well it’s not really a cross roads. More a cul-de-sac that goes by the name of Lazy and I like food too much!

I’m literally just so tired and I can’t even muster up the will to exercise. I try and keep as active as possible during the day.. But the actual thought of swinging a kettlebell around for 10-20 minutes makes me want to take a nap.

Food wise. I’m focusing less on protein and more on balance, making sure I get my veggies in, no fads as such more just balance and vitamins which I think are important especially during winter.

My tummy issues aren’t really helping my tiredness and I get weird sores on my face and shoulders and mouth ulcers galore, which are just so attractive… I’m talking drug addict chic… Like so fucking hot! *sarcasm* My appointment with the specialist has been cancelled due to availability, so it’s going to be later on in December.

My vitamin bloods are coming up good, so I’m happy I’m not deficient in anything!

I think my ‘real life’ is getting more present, so my social media life gets a little left behind and I know with that my motivation disappears!

In an upcoming post ‘Why am I so scared?’ I hope it’ll explain a little how life can literally suck the life out of you and how some health conditions aren’t all fighting, management and being fucking positive. There about taking painkillers, trying not to shit yourself and wishing it would just fuck off, if you will pardon Mon français!

Love Sooz x

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5 thoughts on “Where am I at now?

  1. In my own “read the book from back to front mentality I read your fears post first and then saw this one. I totally get where you are coming from in both of them. I spazzed out yesterday because a food order didn’t come and no one phoned me. I waited around for four hours which was two past my delivery window and past their shut down time. It flared up my OCD and left me nothing for the late dinner I was going to cook for Hubby when he got home from his brother’s. He ended up taking me to McDonald’s because it was cheap and close. It is also absolutely horrid on my conditions. I am supposed to stay away from fried foods (fat), gluten, meat (I had chicken McNuggets which is okay, at least as a protein). All of that triggered a horrid pain flare which in itself triggers bad eating habits.

    Anyway, enough about me. I am proud of you. You are doing your best and are owning your downfalls. I think that is all any of us can do.

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