I was diagnosed with gallstones a few weeks ago after a good few months of pain, scans and doctors you want to punch in the goolies because they’re so bloody irritating.
Unfortunately they can’t operate until I lose more weight, and the stones are big enough to not block anything. The pain is technically in my own hands, if I eat peanuts or too much fat, sugar or dairy it’s kinda painful. You might be thinking…well aren’t you staring right at the solution? Stop eating those things!
Like a toddler or me, I always want what I shouldn’t have. I’m doing no junk July, and I want to scream “can’t I have ANYTHING?” I want to shovel food in, ice cream, chocolate, crisps, soda and cheese! But I won’t… I’m just being grumpy!
I found a list of does and dont’s online and did the thing of reading it like “well, I will just eat a fucking carrot then!” But a few changes might be beneficial!
I need to help myself!
I said goodbye to bacon with a bacon and low fat cream cheese bagel for lunch today. It was so sad, I almost wore black and played a funeral March as I carried my plate to the table.
A treat meal doesn’t need to contain 9,000 calories and take 7 hours to eat. It could be as simple as some cheese, some chocolate or some bacon. I’m saying this through gritted teeth. I want to eat ALL THE FOOD and be a size 10! Why? why is life so bloody irritating?
I want to smear a McDonald’s big mac around my face and tip Pepsi over my head! Whilst stuffing fries dipped in a mcflurry in my mouth a fistful at a time!
God that sounds strangely wonderful..throw in “black velvet” playing in the background!
My best plan is to make this a challenge, stick to it and suck it up!
Love Sooz xx