Ok, my decision to not have children is part medical part the rest of me. Firstly the medical aspect, I have pcos and endometriosis, making conceiving difficult, along with some other physical issues. However my main reason is, I just don’t want to. I think children are sweet (at times) and applaud parents. I occasionally get a pang around my period of a want to reproduce! It’s like tomatoes… I know I don’t like them so I don’t eat them (tomatoes not children)…no matter how many times people say I’ll change my mind, its just not going to happen. My mental health also affects my want, raising a child when you have mental health issues, doesn’t just affect you. You’re bringing a human into the world, shaping their destiny until they spread their own wings. It’s a responsibility. One I just don’t want to take up. In the past I have been with men, I’m fairly open about it, and I can’t rule out never being with one ever again, its not planned by any stretch of the imagination. But, as far as fertility treatment, finding a sperm donor etc… It’s a long process, one which you have to plan and really want. If you’re with a man it can be (not always) a little Easier, happy accidents can happen. I know people judge and say science can do all sorts, I can adopt! But it just isn’t a want for me. I support anyone in their quest for children by whatever means, I like children (to a point). I might reach 80 and think “ahh I wish I’d had kids” nothing is ever set in stone. My journey has taught me to expect the unexpected, but children aren’t in my view. Society doesn’t tell you how to feel. You create your own future.
Love Sooz x